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I went to bed the night of my birthday early and sober. Maybe it was the full moon, maybe it’s covid, but I didn’t really feel like doing anything. Normally I have all my closest friends in my backyard, I put the lights up, we drink and talk and slowly get tipsy.
I have learned a lot about myself during the lockdown. I loved the ability to create from a place of peace, where time felt infinite. I loved the feeling of moving at my own pace. I’ve learned it’s important for me to take breaks. From the moment I crossed the border to Canada after living in NY, I’ve committed myself fully to my business. Four years of non-stop building. Within those four years I have also discovered myself. It’s as if I needed to discover whatever it was that was inside of me and manifest it into real life in order to fully understand how I move through society. My creativity is so much of who I am. How I look at the world, how I treat people, who I choose to spend my time with, how I make my decisions. It’s all connected. This lockdown allowed me to slow down and brought all of this hard work to the surface to analyze. I’ve realized energies really affect me. Gossip is not a form of conversation. Jealously is not love. Judging the way someone lives and how they choose to move through their life is non of anyone’s business. Never before have I been so in tuned with what is happening around me. As a result I feel like I am moving closer to the centre of myself. At the highest level, my intention has moved towards creating my own work of art, my life. What the future holds, where my next step will be, my next big decision - they operate from a place of intuition, faith and complete open mind and flexibility. Anything is possible and dreams do come true, but I’ve learned greater invitations beyond ones wildest dreams are also real, but those will get missed with a tunnel vision view. I will no longer shrink myself to fit into someone else’s insecurities, they are not mine to carry anyways. I feel like I am stepping into the fullness of who I am. and it feels powerful. So much has changed since last year. I feel stronger and more ready than ever for the next season in my life.
I woke up on July 7th (the day after my birthday) and felt at peace. I didn’t feel like doing anything for my birthday and yet the people I love already had it all planned. That is the beautiful thing about keeping those who truly love you around you, they will lift you up when you’re low without even realizing they are doing it. I am excited about 32. Cheers to another year!! x C