// MIAMI, ART BASEL, VEGAS, WORK,,,,,
Miami, Art Basel, some lost film from Vegas with the fam, some work.
I was looking back at some photos of this time last year and I look like a completely different human. And I am really proud of that. I wanted to step into all of my fears - in love, in work, in finances, in location. And I did it. Fully, in all of its ups and downs. My dad passed away when I was 9 years old, and I wonder - I mean I know - his passing taught me how short life can be. He was 41. Maybe in some weird way I feel divinely protected by him, like the doors that are opening have his hands on them somehow. And maybe that’s why I jump in head first. But life, wow, what a beautiful, scary, very real place. Even in all of my ups and downs of this year I would do it all over again. I’m sitting in my studio on this cold Saturday morning listening to SZA’s new album, feeling just happy. There is so much work to get done before the holidays and I’m feeling so thankful for that. For the work that I get to create, in this little studio of mine. My own world that I’ve managed to carve out for myself. My place of refuge when life brought me to my knees, my place of daydreaming, magic and make-believe. My constant.
I learned how to show up for myself, I learned boundaries - still learning - I learned personal discipline, I learned how to make my company work for me - rather than me work for my company. Huge shifts in perspectives this year that felt so simple when I had them, but had such a profound effect on my life. Slowly I became my own constant I could trust and lean on. I’m learning how to truly grasp the moment of Now. How to truly understand how much power the present moment has. To take deep breaths when I get in my head and get into the flow of life, to allow what is to leave to leave, and what is to stay stay. To allow people to show up and be who they are as they are, to accept situations for what they are, and to know that in the end I have myself and she’s someone pretty special.
“Everyone buys books, few ever read them. Everyone wants growth, few accept the pain. Everyone wants to be happier, few ever change. Intention is nothin without action, but action is nothing without intention.”
