// A RESET

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Hello from Canada :) I spent last weekend in nature with my friends and fam. A reset. A weekend with no phone, no work, no computer. Just my camera. I am teaching myself how to do nothing. I realized in LA I am pretty bad at it. I am very good at keeping myself very busy while alone. I never really sat alone and allowed myself to be bored. Allowed my mind to think about nothing. So I’ve been practicing, and the first couple times were awful. I have been going through some personal stuff lately that obviously came to the surface. So I would feel it for like 2 minutes then get uncomfortable and go on a hike. After the 4th or 5th time I didn’t run off and go on a hike, I sat with the stuff. and it wasn’t so bad. By the 8th or 10th time of doing this I realized that the silence, me, the aloneness was enough. It was a space that did not need to be filled with anything. It just was. I could just be.

August was a lot. The work load, the deadlines due, the Miami to LA back to Miami, the hotels to friend's homes back to hotels, to living out of suitcases, the rental cars. To trying to build a business in the middle of all of it. No one tells you how hard this is. It takes a lot of mental power to keep motivated and inspired through it all. To be able to be present for clients, and friends. I wouldn’t change it, but my new lesson is having check-ins with myself to make sure I am taking the breaks needed. Making the right choices - not just from my intuition but from my mind too.

It’s prep time for me. I’ve never felt so focused and sure on what is coming next. A rebirth is here. It came with the death or a shedding of parts of myself that no longer served me. Things really do happen in the perfect timing. The challenge is the patience and wait until it’s time. And when it is time you’ll feel it. I promise you, you’ll feel it. It’s like there is no other answer other than jump.

K, back to work Happy Friday x

// SHE'S WORKING!

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Hi from LA :) Just landed this morning straight on-site to the Moxy Hotel. The Houston Brothers are opening an insane concept called Level 8. LA is in for a treat :) I was on-site in Miami yesterday looking over a new project for Groot Hospitality. The artwork for this project is probably one of the most detailed CKD has done. 10000 hours and counting lol. Almost there. Other than that, I have a new collection coming out that I am in love with already. Watercolor leopard. The colorways are cool. Muna and I have some greatttttt things happening behind the scenes for the CKD book and the rebrand of the company. So many moving parts, but I oddly operate better and more efficient when I am busy. k back to work xx

// A LITTLE SOUTH OF FRANCE

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I was sitting alone at Hotel de Crillon in Paris on the eve of my birthday. I don’t really love celebrating my birthday with a lot of people. Birthdays have always felt heavy. A heaviness I want to be alone to process. Or maybe this is a product of me being alone often. I have fallen in love with eating dinner by myself. Lol, maybe I should stop being such a loner - but I love it here. From Jan to now, life felt like it was moving at lightening speed. From personal to work, the universe was serving its lessons to keep up with the growth. Felt like one lesson after the other. I handled them, but sometimes they threw me. I ask a lot of my life. I wanted friendships that felt like family, friendships that are loyal, not jealous and fun. Friends who lift me up and pour into me as much as I pour into them. I asked to live out my dreams - which comes with a heavy level of commitment and dedication. I love what I do and I am thankful to be able to do it. I asked for evolution of self, to meet my highest self. To walk in my purpose. I asked for my true love. My little unit I can call my own. My partner, my best friend. Still waiting on this (wink)…

Because I ask for a lot, I will be given a lot and not all of it is good. I have had my self worth tested this year. Those moments hurt and threw me off my centre. But now I understand they were just shaking me to open my eyes and see it for what it was. Everything is always working for my greatest good. Nothing is a personal attack, and sadly in all of those situations it was the other person blaming me for their shit that had nothing to do with me. Do not dim your light for anyone, get to know yourself so well - even all the bad stuff you don’t want to look at. If you don’t people will try to tell you what you are , who you are and what you are not. If you’re not strong enough, you’ll believe them. On the other hand, I was also introduced to wonderful humans I call family. Friends who have opened their homes, heart and their time. I am the luckiest girl in the world.

I am sitting in the studio writing this, A little hungover from Beyonce’s concert last night, feeling immensely grateful for all of it. I spent two weeks in the South of France with friends who I have been lucky to meet on my journey.

K, just saying hi :) I hope you’re enjoying this beautiful summer energy. Feels like a fresh beginning. And I’m walking into this new door with my head high.

// MEXICO

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I’ve spent a lot of time in Mexico over the last two years. I’ve been lucky to explore Mexico from Cabo, to Puerto Escondido, to Tulum, to Mexico City, to La Paz, to San Agustin Buenavista. I ordered dinner last night in Spanish, without realizing that I was speaking Spanish. And I just sat there for a second and I thought… how cool is that. When I was living in NYC I would meet these groups of friends who traveled together, lived all over the world, were all living lives they loved, and were like family. And here I am sitting at the Mexico City airport a little hungover from Dana’s 40th in Puerto Escondido, ordering my dinner in a language I did not know how to speak two years ago. SO much can change in just a year.

// SELF WORTH?

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I’ve been thinking a lot about self worth lately. Self, worth. How we do define self worth for ourselves? and once we do define our self worth how do we continue to implement and set those boundaries for when it matters most. LA has been a very strange place to navigate. I’ve met some really great people, but equally have met some really not so great people. Each relationship testing how I value myself. I have come to the conclusion that the more that you get to know yourself… all of who you are - the good, the bad, the ugly - the more you will become more aligned with your vibration, and in turn you will start to feel people and their vibration. I know when I am in a room or sitting across from someone I shouldn’t be. If it doesn’t feel right - it’s not. LA has sharpened that tool for me. I don’t really know why I’m rambling on about this - but maybe this will resonate for someone reading this. Someone who’s self worth has also been tested. When it feels dark - it is. and when you feel like you shouldn’t be in the energy you’re in, leave. A lot of people I have met here define their worth based on what they do. I mean, it’s LA. It’s external and a dangerous game to give your energy away like that. My self worth comes from who I am. My spirit, my childlike self, my fundamental values, respect, honesty, communication, commitment to self and others, loyalty. And I trust that if I plug into that vibration, everything else that doesn’t match that will simply fall to the side.

I’m going to be traveling for a bit… looking forward to navigating the next couple months a little more equipped and ready and aligned with myself. It’s giving Queen energy this summer and she’s ready.

// MILANO

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Milano, Italy. One of my favourite cities. Milan design week with my favourite people. How lucky am I that I get to work and travel and have FUN with my group of people. The week was filled with a lot inspiration, a lot of wine and a lot of laughs. I can’t wait to show there one day for design week. I am hoping for next year :) CKD has a product in the works. More on that another time.

// LATELY

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From the beginning of April it has been non-stop, every day, every weekend, every moment was filled with something. A lesson, an exciting moment, a new job, another lesson, a night out, a new friend, a new opportunity, an installation. I have spent the last three days in bed because of it. I can only work for a couple of hours before my eyes start to sting and my head hurts. I’m in need of some Candice time. It’s going to be a weekend of unpacking everything that has happened and write down some intentions for everything I want to come. Feeling very grateful, exhausted, and hopeful for the future. Some photos of life lately. K going back to sleep. x C